Sunday, October 31, 2010

Hiii to all, holidays have started, but sadly my bridging starts tml. I've to wake up early in the morning for school as usual, and it ends at 12pm everyday. Sad girl is me. My november have already been so packed.. by school by events, by work. I need to start going out, start saving up, and need to start planning for next year.

How fast time flies, it's gonna be 1st Nov in a while. After november, will be december. and then a brand new year 2011. Shall enjoy myself within this two months before my nightmare starts... :\ Shall blog more about other stuffs soon. Sorry people my blog is so boring bcos my life is so boring! :\


Buai xxx

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Bad side is blowing towards me, but God stands strong with me. I'm a lucky girl. Always that a lil lucky. I've gotten another chance, but another time to prove things right. Once I don't cherish that lil chance, it's still the same. I'm going down again. I promise i'm fucking hell prove everything wrong and get things right back on track.

I'll be fifteen in a months' time. I can't wait. But realising that, fifteen. 1 5. I'll still have another 6 years to actually learn how to drive a car, since they changed the system, I will have another 3 years to be legal for ciggs and alcohol, I'll have another year more to be out of my school.
2010 flies too fast. I didn't cherish it well, I didn't learn it well. But it just fly so fast that I couldn't be able to catch it.
I only could remember the good memories, I've already forgotten about the bad.

Thank God for blessing me, thank God for letting me to get this chance.

God bless,

Monday, October 25, 2010

Run away

Hi I'm back over here again. I really feel that I should blog very very often like how I do.
The pictures below were like 1 or 2 weeks back, when I went over to watch buried with babyboy and aftermath I went over to meet my two babygirls, ad and koon. It's some good old times being together talking, laughing taking photos. And also some of the photos I went to prima deli factory with the school and we actually made some pastry.

I feel that I'm wasting my life away. Things like this is happening to me, there's no one to blame but myself. I'm the one who is leading this life, i'm the one who makes decision of everything, I'm the one who choose this over that. Who can I blame? One word, myself. There's nothing I can do change the fact. One sentence, pray for the best and prepare for the worst.

I'll promise to be on my, best. If i am given a good chance to change, if i am given a good chance again. I'll. I'll change every part of me, and be at my best that I could.

Needing some getaway trips really bad, but i think i wouldn't be able anymore. Singapore is far too boring. And over here, there's too many things to worry and think about, far too many. Every thing is a problem. Every problem is a thing. Shit life.

Shall blog again soon, xoxo readers!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010



Get to see,
-Denim ribbon romper,
-Old school boyfriend skater dress
-Cut off shoulder maxi dress
-Big oversized white boyfriend shirt
-Knitted black top
-Peach knitted top
-Triangular all over vintage top
-Black floral corset
-Nude pink 3 ways cardigan
-Zipper wedges
-Denim ripped shorts


Saturday, October 16, 2010

The 30 days letter.
I'm just gonna start off with one first..

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

My parents.
Definitely in my life, I didn't do good in almost everything that I can be. I'll never tend to try my best, i'll never believe in myself being a success. It's just plain laziness from me to be the best out of what I can be. My parents brought me up, especially my mum by hand. I'm just a spoilt child in a way I'll say,

I'm sorry daddy mummy, I've never done anything proud that I could be.
In studies, in life, in anything, everything I'm doing so bad to the negative, to the limits.
I'm sorry for not being the best daughter you can get, I'm sorry for not being the nicest, understanding daughter you could have.
I'm sorry that I've not always been a good child, I'm sorry that I've not always been as bright as my brother to let you guys be proud of me.

But you guys are the ones that i've always been loving, till now and forever.
Sometimes in life when i needed support, you guys gave me to the fullest. Just a fucking part of me that is a fool that leads me to give you guys disappointments.

I'm sorry, i've not been a good child.
I love you my mum and my dad.


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Ok i just anyhow take one photo to post k. :) Haha. I'm here like in the middle of the night, 12:19am. Right now i'm having fever.. and i have not done with my studying yet.
It's the last paper tomorrow.. god bless me due to me flunking too many subjects for this year 2010.

From tomorrow on, I'll not waste my time anymore I'll spend it on useful stuff instead of rotting and daydreaming.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Hi i'm back here again after reading my older posts in this blog. Ok i realised i hardly blogged about 2010 things. My life literally sucks. Maybe I always thought that i've always found the right ''something'' i feel i've got but it's always wrong and messed up. Those pictures are back to school in 2010, back to my old primary school. I miss primary school because every friendship there is pure, and used-to-be naive. When everyone's so innocent, everything is so perfect. You'll be betraying your friends, backstabbing yes.. but when you're young, those friends you actually cared and cried for are really friends that you really loved and put them into your hearts.
People right now still does that for a friend? Well it's hard to think about it though. Things are happening too quick and everything is like going far too fast.

I'm sitting for my 4th and 5th paper tomorrow already. Thank god this week is gonna be over soon. God bless me.

Shall be back in a while after my exams, I promised i'll do a daily update or something similar k? I wouldn't leave it dead. Too sad already. :)