Sunday, April 25, 2010

Sometimes I'm just wild, sometimes I'm just treating everything as whatever. But do you know that i'm serious in many things in many ways? I'm losing my right path, right track. I'm heading to the wrong direction. What's wrong with me? What did I do to myself for all this? I'm backing out, backing back, going back to be someone I really am. Not the one going to lead myself down, going to lead myself to some place that I didnt belong. I'm changing, and changing. Though life's down like a biatch, I'll still stand up myself and tell myself saying, I'm strong for everything to face it. I'm not going to avoid it, destroy the fact, and hid it behind at all. I'm gonna face it, face the truth. Life's never good, never changing though, but I'm gonna changed to face all of them. I'll do you proud, mum. I love you and I miss you.
X o x o

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Life is still as boring as usual. School is better with gossips talks, talking non stop with people and bonding with my classmates more! ;) Well anyway 2 days ago was 20th..
Happy 16th month my fatcheeks boy ;)
Anyway, have updated again! Support people plz ;)

I'll be back with pixxxx post again ;)

Monday, April 19, 2010

Hi I'm now posting with my phone. Life is getting better huh? ;) though there's still a wide hole to be mended inside my heart. It's painful it hurts, but I got be strong for that smile on someone important to me. I've alot to say, alot to share. But I couldn't find a nice place for such words to be shared. I miss everything being so perfect, when my life is filled up with light.

Be strong and smile, we'll be.


Saturday, April 10, 2010

This is on one of the weekdays, met Danielle up and went to town. I love that day, and perhaps I'm feeling down that day too.

Wondering someday, will life gets better? Or is it me expecting too much? I hate it when I'm in dilemma, I hate it when I'm feeling all alone. I hate it when life is such a fucktard that hurts me down so badly. I've to learn to pick myself when i fall, learnt to be strong from that point that hurt me.

Anyway I've changed my blogskin. Nice or no? ;) Ok I'm off to turn in now, gonna wake up at 8am tml for lesson.

I miss you.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

I’m a slut because i’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because i don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because i won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes i’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because i like boys. I’m annoying because i’m not chill enough. I’m a loser because i’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time i’m happy. I’m weird because i’m not like you. I’m controlling because i get mad. Sometimes i’m clingy because i like being around people. I’m greedy because i like to be satisfied. I’m naive because i’m younger than you. I’m conceited because i’m proud of who i am. I’m rude because my manners aren’t perfect. i’m unappreciative because i don’t praise you. Don’t tell me who i am because i already know.”

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Tomorrow is gna be the first time I'm gonna cook.. haha it's my first practical on some proper food. Hope it turns out well, it's my virgin attempt of buying fish today for the first time I'm excited. Yesterday I bought a dress, and then I regretted buying it. I think I'm wasting a lot of money instead of saving up ;(
Gonna go shopping soon! I'll need more new loots seriously.

Ok my life will be better, I'm praying hard for that everyday!
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Monday, April 5, 2010


Today went out with the boys, and Puteri sayang. It's been a long time since we gathered everyone out for a movie. Caught how to train a dragon! Haha it's really nize (Y)
Last saturday was spent with my babyboy!! ;) Went over to town to catch the show the men who stared at goats. And then sunday was with my family for qingmingjie~ then at night with baby!

I'm strong to be like this. I just realised how hard things just hit on me, but I realised how strong I should be in the end of the time.
I have loved, and lost. I've learnt, and gained.
People just come and go, this is life.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

D :)

Yesterday was a great friday spent with Danielle, had my photoshoot and went over to cityhall/dhoby. All we did was spamming photos, talk crap trying out effects ;) Photos will do the talkings!

I really wish that life would be better, I miss all the perfect times where by all the love I needed I've got them, all the happiness I wanted i've all. Great things doesn't last forever, just like anything man made does. I miss my great life, I miss so many people that contributed that life to me. Life.. can you stop being such a bitch? I missed it, I loved it, and it was the best times I ever had.

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