Worst morning i ever woke up in

I had the worst morning I ever woke up in. It's terrible waking up with puffy eyes, realising that these things are reality. It feels that i'm all alone all over again, or is it i'm too sensitive? I'm tired of tears flowing down my cheeks. I'm tired of getting false hopes, telling myself all this are not true. I'm tired of being like these. I need a break. I need to be strong. I might be loud, might be happy to you, might be smiling like always, actually i'm just a small and timid girl. I'm afraid.